Of Happy Days, and Birthdays...

Today is a day,
some might call it a happy day,
some might call it a new day,
some might just call it another day,
some might call it a fucked up day,

I guess where I am going with this is that different people view different situations in different light,
today might have been one of the most awesome day for you,
today started out as a not so good day which is turning into a real bummer of a day for me,
today you might feel like a winner, however,
today I am and shall remain the loser,
today was supposed to be a happy day,
today, today.....

xoxo
p/s: Happy Birthday Chris!!!!!!

Of Understanding....

It didn't take too long for me to understand you...
Yet it feels like forever before you understood me...
I'm tired and exhausted, waiting for forever...
Yet I'm still waiting...
It may feel like I'm expressing myself in riddles...
Riddles in the dark...
Darkness, where fear resides...
For there are many things which I fear...
Fear can make someone do the weirdest of things...
Fear...
What exactly do I fear?
Fear of being caged...
Fear of abandoned...
Fear of losing out...
Fear of losing you...
What do you fear?
Some might say there is nothing to fear but fear itself...
I have yet to understand that statement...

I'm babbling...if you've wasted your time reading this entry...my apologies!
xoxo