Of Things That Should Not Be Shared...

It's 2 in the morning...can't sleep,
wondering why or what or who is keeping me awake,
maybe it's the thought of you that keeping me awake, or maybe I'm just plain constipated

I have a T-shirt with the print that says,
"Life is full of choices, choose Hope"
Hope, big word, humble meaning, but I can't help but wonder, when does hope turn into obsession?
Choices, what if the choices you have are those which you don't want or impossible to have?

xoxo

Of You...

Dear you, who stole from me...
Dear you, who made me feel inadequate...
Dear you, who brought out the worst in me...
Dear you, who taught me jealousy...
Dear you, who caused me pain, sensitivity and insecurities...
You, freakin' you, who took away the heart and claimed it as your 'lover'...
Hate, is not sufficient a word...
Indifferent suits better...
Be a saint elsewhere!

xoxo

Of Fresh Starts...

Ah, finally, I've realized how neglected my blog is! This past few weeks have been a whirlwind of emotional turmoil, scratch that, make it a few months! As I read through my pass entries, I come to realize how "disturbed" I was! Ah, what a torture! Jealousy is really a taxing and draining thing! and to what end? It feels like I'm not far from where I started!
Hence, it's time to put it behind me! Easily said yea?! Ah, it's gonna be hard, and I guess there will always be moments, thoughts, that will bring up the feelings of hate, insecurities, longing. I can only deal with 'em as they come!
Why the sudden revelation you ask? Well, it's not that I don't wish and hope that things will turn out my way, I do! I freakin' do! But over the weekend, a wise lady told me that "Expectations brings disappointment" It's not that one shouldn't have expectations, it's just that you shouldn't consume yourself over what did not happen (or had happened to someone else but not yourself - sorry, I had to vent!) and just be thankful for the things that do!
At the end of the day, there's still love. I still care. I just need to work on being more selfless I guess! If that's even possible!

xoxo
P/S: Fall season premiers are upon us! All my favourite TV serials are back!! Yay!! HAPPINESS!